This last week has been a hard one for me. One that i didnt think would effect me the way it did. Thursday was Mackenzie's Due date, i didnt think that it would really matter since what baby is born on their due date anyway, mine never are and i havent meet a person so far that has, unless of course its a C-section. Anyway it was hard not to think all week that i would love to be in labor right now i would give anything to be in labor getting ready to have a health full term little girl. But things just dont always turn out the way we plan. It was nice to have her due date near a holiday because it gave us lots of things to do so i didnt end up sitting at home feeling depressed. During this week it did give me time to think about how thankful i am for my family and friends. I'm so grateful to my husband who is willing to let me talk and cry on him. Without him i never could have made it through all of this. I am also grateful for this time of year, i love christmas its my favorite holiday by far and i love getting into the spirit of giving and thinking of others. I have found that through all of this the things that help me the most are thinking of others and giving to others. Its been nice to think of christmas and what i can give to others and how cody and i can help those arounds us. Its also nice to have this time to focus on christ and think about all he has given for me and if all i have to do it let my little girl be with him right now and let her do the work she needs to do then i can do that cause after everything i will still be able to raise her and she will always be my little girl.